It is almost the end of 2011, as another year has gone by.
I look back on my last post, words elude me as I begin to think how silly I always am.
So much has happened since.
I began a new relationship, it may have started off as a little rocky but things are good right now.
I’m still trying hard as ever to keep things right and not make the same mistakes I’ve done before.
I try to better myself as a person, looking back at all I’ve learned.
This year was supposedly supposed to be my bad year, but honestly… It was fuckin’ great.
I’ve done so many things I wanted to do, and believe or not… I went SKYDIVING. Yes. Motherfucking skydiving!
Something I would probably never even plan on doing in my life, and I did it.
All thanks to Ricky Eng.
I feel like I ventured out of my little shell because of him.
Let me tell you, the experience is unforgettable. Not to mention that he took me on Valentine’s Day.
We went to EDC 2011 which was held in Las Vegas, and aside from that… We probably went to Vegas over a handful of times!
SO many roadtrips, he took me everywhere. It’s been well over a decade since I last went to Disneyland, and that happened on Ricky’s birthday which landed on Labor Day weekend. He drove me to socal on my birthday so I can celebrate with my friends… The list is really never-ending and I will never forget.
I have experienced so many new things this year, and that is what I love about Ricky. He might be afraid at first, but he has this, “fuck it” attitude and he’s down for anything, and I really need someone like that to explore the boundaries with me.
Being with him makes me want to better myself, so we can both be happy and continue on our journeys.
I will not mention any of the bumps in the road that we have ran into, but seeing how he changed… I really need to give him credit.
I’ve been having a really hard time coping lately, and just dealing with it that sometimes I feel like I need help… advice. I know he’s there to aid me but I just need to make an effort to let it go. – But I’m not sure if that’s the right thing to do…
I feel super old now. 2012 is the year of the dragon and I really, really want a DRAGON BABY. My mom is a dragon, I’m a dragon and I really want a dragon of my own. It’s only fitting :) Not to sound psycho or anything, but I can really see it working out.
I’m just not sure if I’m ready for that kind of responsibility yet. I love my freedom, and I feel that having a baby will just tie me down. But we’ll see. I guess I can have my last baby as a dragon baby when I’m a old hag at 36 years old. Blah.
No plans for the end of the year, really. A cirque du soleil show this Friday, TOTEM! Aiming to watch all of the shows. That’s on my bucket list. (NOTE TO SELF : MAKE BUCKET LIST!!!) So far I’ve watched Mystère and Quidam. I really want to watch “O” !
I’m really looking forward to 2012, because it’ll be my year to shine.
No joke, I really need to get shit poppin’.
Cheers to the new year.